nah man. violation doesn’t come close, the best way to describe the past week is a hazy blur of recently stirred emotion, jack daniels and menthol cigarettes. when you meet someone special, all you want to do is be with them, i know this is extremely cliche, but whether it be over the phone, skype or the brief time we actually had together i felt happy, distracted from the shit in life. basketball training was busy killing me for you to then drop me with that blow, softened slightly by a familiar embrace, but still a blow none the less. the next day was good, clothes always seem to make everything better, then wearing those clothes to get nice with some friends after a trek to benfleet. that half deck of fags and beer was well deserved i think. the kfc alex’s dad bought us was like crispy salvation. i mean it hurts like a bitch, but i can’t act like one, really, where will it get me? i’m still here.
i haven’t written anything down in months. i had a rant which i quickly deleted to save my sanity. i always have a lot to say, on everything really. but let’s update everything: one exam left, two weeks to the exam, moving in a month and a bit and the finances are sorted. i have a new phone so occasionally a couple of photos will pop up from my instagram, follow me if you want @stanmartin. tbh i’m actually looking forward to the eurozone collapsing, the germans are just using it to increase their own gains, is it not obvious from them being to only country which is not going through sever economic hardship? also the EU is just a way to control governments which is absurd, why should the british parliament go through brussels to pass a DOMESTIC law. they speak of it bringing trade, what without the eu everyone would stop asking for our products? fuck off. anyways i’m gonna read the paper and be angry. grr.
stan
i sit here on a come down from baking. 2 chainz bumping, anthony humping, alex bowsing and kaiman fizzing. i’m in such a good place atm. perfect balance between stress and bliss. tell you the truth life without agg/arguments is actually shit, i need some entertainment at other peoples expense. i will never care for some people. meh. i think i may have underestimated some of my friends, you have to give him props for the flak he takes, but would he still take that flak if he started acting with some pride? not ignorance pride? fuck it yolo his life an all. it annoys me when people take liberties actually. anyways i’m moving soon, so i have a list of shit to do:
Party
Girls
Kiss this one particular person
See everyone!
but hey ho this is the time we find our true friends right? take care
stan.
